I'm trying to stay as calm and relaxed as I can today. I had a routine exam this morning and was told by my doctor that I need to go to the hospital tonight. Due to my "toxemia" history with Isaiah 9 years ago, and toxemia again with this second one..they want to be extra careful that the baby is delivered and safe.
I'm nervous, I don't know what to expect out of being "induced". I've accepted that maybe a C-section might be a route we'll have to take. It's for the safety of the baby and of course, for my health.
Going to be given Cervidil tonight to soften the cervix and if everything looks good tomorrow morning when the doc checks in on me, we can start the Pitocin. *sigh*, with Isaiah everything was so fast and done on its own without the use of meds. But it's true what they say, "every pregnancy is different". I don't remember how long I pushed with Isaiah, but I just remember how good the feeling was when he came out. I won't be too TMI on here, but it was a nice feeling!!!
I prepped all of Isaiah's things for the week. I'm going to be missing him when we're in the hospital. Of course, I'll be calling him every night to check on him. Unless I go into labor, then I'll have to see him after the baby is born. I was supposed to chaperone his field trip this Thursday. I guess not anymore!!!
Just got back from a followup appointment from Wednesday's "scare" of my sky-high blood pressure. Doc's orders for me are to rest and just take it easy from now until the baby comes. I guess I haven't been doing much resting and relaxing because so many things have been on my mind lately. I have a history of high blood pressure, especially from when Isaiah was born..so I have to make sure NOT to let this happen again.
But the baby is ok and everything is looking good so far with him and with me almost being 37 weeks. We're almost there! I'm just resting in bed with the laptop. I just finished watching last night's episode of the X Factor on the DVR. It keeps me busy while I'm in the last stage of just "waiting" for Noah to be born already. These are the following shows that I'll remember and will remind me of this pregnancy when I look back: X-Factor, Terra Nova, The Office, and The Lying Game. When I was pregnant with Isaiah, all I watched every single night was the Cosby Show - no wonder Isaiah loves that show too!!! Or maybe he just tolerates it because I still watch it to this day.
With this pregnancy, I'll have memories of terrible singers, dinosaurs, stuck up society girls from Arizona, and the Dunder Mifflin Paper Company!
Another funny thing that I remember about being pregnant with Isaiah was certain music that I couldn't listen to. I know there are certain foods or smells that people can't stand that will make them sick because it takes them back to their 1st Trimester...well, with me...it's music. With Isaiah, particularly during my first trimester, I remember listening to a lot of Wu-Tang, especially Ghostface Killah. At that time, Ghostface came out with a single called "Ghost Showers" and I would PLAY that song out!!!!! I loved that song! Then later on towards the end of the first trimester, that song made me so sick that when I would hear just the intro, I would get nauseous. To this day, I still can't listen to that song and I refuse to try to listen to it because it might make me sick. Hearing that song makes me feel like the room is closing in on me.
Guess which artist makes me sick during THIS pregnancy? Janelle Monae. =(
I'm so sad that Janelle Monae's music makes me sick because I LOVE her and everything about her! I listened to her so much and I analyzed and broke down every single song she had. When I found out I was pregnant earlier this year, I slowly stopped listening to her because it made me sick. Now that I'm almost done with this pregnancy, I try to listen to her, but I can't even finish a song of hers anymore. I even tried to add one or two songs of hers in my ipod so we could listen to it at the baby shower - but I had to delete it because it made me feel weird inside. I can't force my brain to not let her music get to me. Just like with Ghostface, Janelle Monae's music makes me feel like the room is closing in on me and I'm about to get stomped on by an elephant. I'm weird, but that's exactly how I feel!!
I don't think I'll ever be able to listen to Janelle Monae ever again. It's crazy how pregnancy does that to people sometimes. Thank GOD I wasn't listening to Mariah Carey during my first trimester, right?! Oh man..imagine that. Because if I were listening to Mariah during my first trimester, I would never ever get to hear her voice or her music again!!! It's almost like a first trimester curse for me now. LOL
I can't believe I actually made it through the baby shower! As I was looking through the pictures, I was wondering at first why I wasn't in a lot of them and why it was mostly Jose...then I realized, "Oh yeah! I didn't want to get my lazy butt off the chair most of the time". But the party's over and now it's time to fix and re-fix the diaper bag and pack my bag as well. I'm really happy that we got a LOT of what we needed for the baby. Thank you again to every single one of you who showed up at the shower. WE LOVE YOU!!!!!
Washing all of the baby items in Dreft makes me feel nostalgic and I remember Isaiah 9 years ago when he was a baby. I packed one of Isaiah's newborn pajamas that he barely wore, and I would like Noah to wear that for his going-home outfit. I'm excited!!! Any day now, Baby Noah will be here, so I gotta be ready. I was looking at the diapers and packing some in the bag and I also asked myself, "Will everything just come back to me? I'm sure it will. But how will it be the second time around? I'll have a little crying baby in one hand, and a 4th grader with tons of homework to deal with!"
Just like Shiela said, "Ready for Round Two?!!?" I hope so!!!!